BFF

I know this may sound silly but I didn't like people so much in my past. I loved T.V and books way more instead. At least my shows and books were honest, readily available and never intentionally sought to hurt me like some bitches who called themselves friends.... guess you could say I was bitter... It took me a long time to realize that I used my books and shows as a replacement for the people I wanted to avoid. I mean I would rather sit at home alone reading or watching TV instead cause I was safe and was always guaranteed a good time because overall, I was scared of being hurt, afraid of rejection and of not being loved in return. I mean it’s so easy to love someone but you have no guarantee something in return.... this was a risk I wasn’t going to take!... but that was like a week ago.... ok it was a long time ago and these days, I LOVE people. I learned to love through friendship.

I would like to take a moment of your time and share something I learned about friendship a while ago. I now know who my best friend is because she is someone who cannot imagine life without... I know that sounds corny and dried up but there are many people who enter our lives and never leave despite all the trials and struggles..... She is someone who I can call in the middle of the night and say I killed someone and she will ask ‘Where can we hide the body!’... This may sound funny but the truth of the matter she is my friend because she is there for her when I need her and willing to lie to the police for me... I mean if that’s not love then what is!... whether it’s just someone to let steam out on or someone to laugh with when the tears have dried... I mean it dawned on me the other day that I have already made future plans that include her!... and the funny thing is I haven’t even asked her.... yet... I just assumed she would because I love her soo much.... I know she will be my maid of honour when I get married because she would pick the sexiest stripper for my bachelorette party!!... my kids will call her Aunty Charlene even though I know she’s gonna think they are spoilt ignorant kids lol.... it never occurred to me that our friendship won’t last cause I truly love her and wouldn’t let her go without a fight cause we are bitches of terror (personal joke lol)!!!

I know at times, we both realize that it is not easy for either of us to give and receive love but what can we do... that's life! But the love I feel from her and give back in return is unconditional.... when she gets hurt I take it personally and when she does well I’m at the party drinking like I’m the one doing well! But I’ve learnt that in friendships our flaws are taken not of... i say this because sometimes we may annoy the hell out of each other but we don’t let the other person know...For example, we will not question, discuss or challenge certain issues - we'll push them 'under the carpet' like the fact I know she hates it when I start doing something when talking to her because I’m not paying full attention but she doesn’t say anything soo I carry on :)... I guess something’s aren’t worth mentioning because they may cause more harm than good but because I know her so well i pick up on this frustration and I do try pay attention cause i don’t want her to be mad at me..... and in all honesty i know she will kick my ass!

and sometimes we all tend to withhold certain important information from each other, not cause we don’t want the other to know, we just don’t talk about it. As a result of these withholds, one of us becomes blind to the views and opinions of the other, I mean I really thought we both decided Beyonce was a slut but I didn’t know she was Beyonce’s biggest fan!. But there are some wonderful factors that make our relationships work like Respect, Care and Compassion. Respect means, no matter what state or place I am in and what state or place she is in - I respect myself and I respect her! To care is to see what she needs and being willing to give it wether its advice or a non judgemental shoulder to cry on.

I guess what I have realised is that Friends are people who know everythinag about but still love you anyway!

And I do love you Charlene and can’t wait to see what life has in store for us